I tested again this morning (9dp5t), using both a cheapie test and a brand new Clear Blue digital. “Not Pregnant” soon appeared, and punched me in the stomach.
I hate this so much; I hate it for all of us (infertility community). I'm angry and sad, so before I type something I might regret (feeling very bitter tonight), I'll say goodnight.
Thanks so much for the kind words and prayers. More updates tomorrow.